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Living in Ohio again with my almost estranged wife Jess and daughter Kali. Life is going along just fine. Kali my daughter was born in May 2005. She's doing quite well and is an amazingly funny little girl. She's become pretty much the focus of my time. I rant a bit in a real life filter area to friends who don't mind it about my quasi-wife and the problems that she presents, though she's pushing herself out of the relationship now so who knows how long that will last. To get added to that you just reply to this post.

I was born in 1967, and I work at a small company in the heartland of rural Ohio doing technical support, accounting, production, and shipping for a company that's in CD and DVD replication and duplication business. I have fun with Kali some, fence a very little, and generally try to roll along with life as it throws it's flury of punches at me.

My recent journal title was taken from a Kalai song. The complete lyrics are below. It pretty much sums up how I feel about most of the people in my life, especially Jess.

Fading Out

You can spite me in your own sane ways, you can tear me down.
Say you love me just to turn your back, just to be the clown.

I'm like the lonely woman in the back row of your sold out show
I swallow your ruse until I can't even taste it anymore
Shows what you know.

Be also cunning with your cutting remarks, you don't wanna break the rhythm,
This family taught as families often do, be careful what you give them

Say what you will, then walk away
Don't ever come back again
You can have your laugh and I'll fall apart
But you never could break my heart
Cause you faded in, and you'll fade back out.

So heaven help you if you someday regret the way you treated me,
I spend every minute of my life regretting you,
Trying to rid myself of your disease, Oh please

Lonely woman in the back row of your sold out show
I swallow your ruse until I can't even, taste it anymore
Shows what you know.

Say what you will and walk away
Don't ever come back again
You can have your lies, and I'll fall apart
But you never could break my heart
Because you faded in, and you'll fade back out.

Everyone fades in and back out again once I get to know them it seems.

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